Wednesday, March 07, 2007

UGH

I can’t do this anymore.

This has been the worst week ever. And last week was only slightly better. I think for the past 10 days or so, each night I go to bed and say, “Think positively: tomorrow will better, because things can’t get any worse” or “Well, this is really rock-bottom. So the only direction I can go is up!”
And yet, I’ve found myself near tears every day. And then some.

At work, everything is impossible. There’s too much going on, people are crazy, and everyone’s feeling discouraged. At home… things just aren’t always so easy. They’re tearing my kitchen apart, leaving us no room to exist. And I hadn’t cleaned the dogshit up because of the snow, so when it melted while I was away this weekend, the neighbors circled it on the sidewalk. Now I’m all full of guilt and shame and shit.

This morning I took my parents to the airport so they could get a plane headed for the Caribbean, leaving me to rot in the FREEZING Boston cold. I thought I’d do the right thing — put their minds at ease by taking good care of their car and their dog.

I dropped them off at Logan at 6:45am. Within three hours, the dog got sick (shitting on the rug) and the car got towed.

I JUST NEED A GOOD DAY.

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